Saturday, February 9, 2008


Pretty much sums up the way I've been feeling today. I am for the most part a happy person. Sad or lonely are more common emotions for me but even they don't often visit. I usually, under normal circumstances, feel pretty optimistic about life. Today I feel about as mean as I get. I feel the kind of mean that lets me smile on the outside, but boil inwardly. I am literally boiling. I think if I blew up at someone or something I would probably feel 100% better, but who am I gonna take it out on? My kids? Don't think so, it's not their fault I feel so badly. I don't have a dog or cat, and am still paying on the car so all those are out too. This is the kind of mean that makes me want a drink. Ahh,... the curse of the Irish. I won't of course succumb to that. I've seen where that road leads. I don't wanna go down it. I guess the mean will just have to wear off like an ugly smudge of ink.