Tuesday, July 21, 2009

Back to the Drawing Board

Just when I thought I had it all figured out, I find the rug has been yanked out from under me.

Or...in rather less dramatic language: I thought I had next school year all planned out (including the scheduling)and today just got word that our co-op location provider (aka my friend) will no longer be hosting NOR participating.

Now I have to say, I'm not surprised because I had felt the Lord preparing me for this since last spring. Still, when I got the news I felt completely dashed. I felt dumped. I think mostly because she didn't really give a reason as to why. She's been very scarce, no calls, no emails, nothin'. But other than that...no other warning.

So I'm struggling with that insecure girl that feels so rejected, unworthy and unloved. I feel like this is in some way all my fault (although rationally know it couldn't be). I feel like it's the end of all the security I have come to rely on in my homeschooling. I always knew that even if I was having a bad homeschooling week, there was always coop to fall back on. They would pick me up, and lend a hand in educating my children.

I know, I KNOW! I'm very dramatic. But, hey, it's my blog. I'm allowed to be.

One would think the next logical step is move it to another home. That's where the problem is. This particular friend is a central location for all participants. We all have to drive around a half hour to get there. Which means we are all spread out pretty far. If we moved to another home it would make it double the driving distance.

......And now, I have to go in search of a good, RIGOROUS, science and art program.

And I feel like I've lost my friend.

I am going to start scouting other locations in the same area that we held it in previously. Hopefully I can find something that is free, and willing to give us enough space for 2 small classes and a lunch area.